What To Do

             I feel a bit odd. This feeling where I know what to do, but I also have no clue. Not a single idea, and yet there is a plethora of ideas floating around in this blank mind of mine. 

             What can I do to make this work? Is anything that I have written good enough? Is there a point to any of this? I don't know. I don't know if it will be anything, or if it will mean something to someone. I only wish. I only hope. 

             I feel fear. Fear of the unknown. Do you feel it too? I fear. It feels difficult to say. It isn't something that is common to speak of. At least not in my experience. It isn't something that is normally spoken of. To dig deep and say that this is something I fear.

              I fear love. I am afraid of loving someone the way I once loved one. Afraid of loving someone new. Afraid of opening myself up again. To reveal my past. To tell them my truth. My story. My life. To share myself with someone again. For so long I thought it would be one person, but that one person is no longer part of my life. They will never be what they once were.

               I once thought they were everything while I was nothing. Funny how things change...

What is your story?

Do you fear? Not a fear like being fearful of say... A spider. But the fear of getting close to someone. Saying "I love you" 

Is it just me? It can't be just me...